A personal blog by a graying (mostly Anglo with light African-American roots) gay leftist leaning liberal progressive fit married college-educated former Baha'i NPR-listening Professor Emeritus now following the Dharma from California to Minas Gerais, Brasil.
lot of people try to counteract the ‘I am not good enough’ with ‘I am
good enough.’ In other words, they take the opposite and they try to
invest it. That still keeps the world at the level of polarities. The
art is to go behind the polarities.
So the act is to go not to the world
of ‘I am good’ to counteract ‘I am bad,’ or ‘I am lovable’ as opposed
to ‘I am unlovable.’ But go behind it to ‘I am.’ I am. I am. And 'I am'
includes the fact that I do crappy things and I do beautiful things and I
am. That includes everything and I am.
As you start to rest in the I am-ness, from that place, you can start to
set boundaries on the way you play the game and become more impeccable
in the way you play it.