A personal blog by a graying (mostly Anglo with light African-American roots) gay left leaning liberal progressive married college-educated Buddhist Baha'i BBC/NPR-listening Professor Emeritus now following the Dharma in Minas Gerais, Brasil.
As
a culture we swing from being afraid of anger to romanticizing it. I
try to see anger for what it is, in myself, and neither fear it nor
idealize it.
There’s no clinging to that which dies. For who we are, was, is and will
be, these are just processes of transformation. Just like it’s hard for
a pre-pubescent to understand that a time will come when his baseball
cards aren’t that relevant; so the time will come when even our mortal
coil is not that relevant.
“Precisamos nos harmonizar com a natureza e resgatar a nossa
naturalidade. Porque, em algum momento, nós perdemos a naturalidade e
nos tornamos artificiais. Isso ocorreu porque fomos contaminados pelo
medo e deixamos de confiar na vida. Então desenvolvemos máscaras através
das quais nos protegemos e fingimos ser algo que não somos para agradar
alguém; para conseguirmos alguma coisa em troca. E o que nós queremos
em troca é amor. Este é o grande medo: o de não sermos amados.”
“Necesitamos armonizarnos con la naturaleza y rescatar nuestra
naturalidad. Porque en algún momento, perdimos la naturalidad y nos
volvimos artificiales. Esto ocurrió porque fuimos contaminados por el
miedo y dejamos de confiar en la vida. Entonces desarrollamos máscaras a
través de las cuales nos protegemos y fingimos ser algo que no somos
para agradarle a alguien, para conseguir algo a cambio. Y lo que
nosotros queremos a cambio es amor. Este es el gran miedo: el de no ser
amados.”
“We need to become more in harmony with nature and
rescue our own naturalness. At some point in time, we lost our
naturalness and we became more artificial. This happened because we were
contaminated by fear and lost our trust in life. Consequently, we
developed masks to protect ourselves and pretended to be something that
we aren’t in order to please the other and to get something in return.
What we want in return is love. Our greatest fear is not to be loved.”
Liberation
does not come when you conquer your ego, silence it, or through
repression and denial get it to behave “properly.” Liberation comes when
we release our attachment to the habitual conditioned nature and
structure of our temporary egos.
“Com as brutais mudanças a que já estão ocorrendo no planeta, talvez
até mesmo algumas das nossas tradições sociais e culturais precisem ser
revisadas, porque elas deixarão de fazer sentido. Se a natureza passa a
funcionar de outra maneira, isso vai gerar um descompasso ainda maior
entre os nossos hábitos e os fenômenos naturais. E isso é uma das
consequências da nossa total desconexão com a natureza. É a nossa falta de naturalidade se manifestando nela.”
“Con los brutales cambios que están sucediendo en el planeta, tal vez
hasta algunas de nuestras tradiciones sociales y culturales necesiten
ser revisadas, porque dejarán de tener sentido. Si la naturaleza pasa a
funcionar de otra manera, esto va a generar un desajuste aún mayor entre
nuestros hábitos y los fenómenos naturales. Y esto es una de las
consecuencias de nuestra total desconexión con la naturaleza. Es nuestra
falta de naturalidad manifestándose en ella.”
“In lieu of the
brutal changes that are already taking place on our planet, it may be
time to revise some of our social and cultural traditions as they no
longer make sense in this era. Nature is acting in totally unprecedented
patterns, due to our habits that treat the environment as something
entirely disconnected from ourselves. We disregard our inner nature, and
that gets reflected all too clearly in Mother Nature herself.
“Estando perturbado, você atrai mais perturbação; e isso vai se
transformando numa bola de neve. Ação gera reação e as consequências
podem ser infinitas. A única maneira de parar esse processo é
identificando onde a sua mente ficou presa. Isso é feito através da
auto-observação e da presença. Sente-se, alinhe o corpo, feche os olhos e
permita-se observar os pensamentos e emoções. Aos poucos você verá que
existe uma canção psicológica, um fluxo
de pensamentos repetitivos. Isso significa que você está identificado
com esses pensamentos pois eles te dão um senso de identidade. Mas, ao
observar-se a identificação começa a perder força, pois você se dissocia
dos pensamentos.”
“Estando
perturbado, atraes más perturbación; y esto se va transformando en una
bola de nieve. Acción genera reacción y las consecuencias pueden ser
infinitas. La única manera de detener este proceso es identificando
dónde quedó atrapada tu mente. Esto se hace a través de la
auto-observación y de la presencia. Siéntate, alinea el cuerpo, cierra
los ojos y permítete observar los pensamientos y emociones. Poco a poco
verás que existe una canción psicológica, un flujo de pensamientos
repetitivos. Esto significa que estás identificado con estos
pensamientos porque te dan un sentido de identidad. Sin embargo, al
observarse la identificación comienza a perder fuerza, pues te disocias
de los pensamientos.”
“When we are disturbed, we attract even
more disturbances, and so the snowball effect continues. One action
generates a reaction, and the consequences can be infinite. The only way
to halt this process is to identify where our minds got trapped. This
is done through self-observation and presence. We can sit down, align
our bodies, close our eyes and allow ourselves to observe our thoughts
and emotions. Slowly, we will see that there is a psychological
soundtrack, a flux of repetitive thoughts, playing in our minds. This
means that we are identified with these thoughts because they give us a
sense of identity. But, as we continue to observe, the identification
begins to lose its strength and we can begin to disassociate from these
thoughts.
As you, my fans, know I’m scheduled to play in Greensboro, North Carolina this Sunday. As we also know, North Carolina has just passed HB2, which the media are referring to as the “bathroom” law. HB2 — known officially as the Public Facilities Privacy and Security Act — dictates which bathrooms transgender people are permitted to use. Just as important, the law also attacks the rights of LGBT citizens to sue when their human rights are violated in the workplace. No other group of North Carolinians faces such a burden. To my mind, it’s an attempt by people who cannot stand the progress our country has made in recognizing the human rights of all of our citizens to overturn that progress. Right now, there are many groups, businesses, and individuals in North Carolina working to oppose and overcome these negative developments. Taking all of this into account, I feel that this is a time for me and the band to show solidarity for those freedom fighters. As a result, and with deepest apologies to our dedicated fans in Greensboro, we have canceled our show scheduled for Sunday, April 10th. Some things are more important than a rock show and this fight against prejudice and bigotry — which is happening as I write — is one of them. It is the strongest means I have for raising my voice in opposition to those who continue to push us backwards instead of forwards.
Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band’s Sunday April 10th show is canceled. Tickets will be refunded at point of purchase.
Karma
is basically habit. It’s the momentum of repeated actions that become
habitual. It’s in our best interest to develop as many positive habits
as we can.
I have to be really honest here, since
coming into contact with Bahá’í in the mid-70-s; I have never really
understood, or bought for that matter, the whole disconnectedness from politics
vibe. I remember being so excited by conversations about Central America
(having returned from pioneering in Guatemala during the civil nightmare) in
the 80’s, and how dismayed I was when the dialogue was shut down by Bahá'í Adminstration.
So like a few other rules, I just ignored
it. OK, confession is a no no as well in the Bahá’í Faith, but what the hell, I
have had my rights removed for marrying the one I love, (marriage rules are one more weird
Bahá’í mystery to me as well) and there is no way they will
ever ask us to return to the Faith anyway. So, as I watch the political system
in both my countries enter a very, very, very scary melt down, I am actually
coming to see the wisdom of not engaging in this whole clown-party-pie-fighting
partisan politics thing. I can hear the gasps, and the visualize the clutching
of pearls by both of my dedicated readers of this blog… OK, so I don’t really understand this
allegiance to a particular party, its like a sports team thing (GO Giants!) though
I confess that I can never ever be a republican, after they went after and
continue to go after the GLBTQ community. I lean towards a very, very, very socialist
democrat paradigm… and I do have a very hard time keeping civil around my
Fox TV tea party evangelical bible thump’n family of mine. This is where my Buddhist
work really came in handy recently, and where Bahá’í just didn’t… my last two
trips went pretty well, and I didn’t throw one pie, even ducking a few hurled
at me by my Fox Media-lov’n relatives.
Ommmm... breathe in, breathe out... Here in Brasil, while watching the
impeachment proceedings (about as dignified as a Three Stooges episode) and watching
and listening to those around me blame the media or the politicians for the
problem, and not asking if just possibly our leaders could take a modicum of responsibility
for their actions. At the same time, watching from afar the terrifying fascist-Cruz/Trump
phenomenon ramp-up in the states… I am beginning to see the wisdom in it.
Perhaps.
I confess a fascination of, and support for
Sanders, and an outright fear of and disgust for Trump. But that being said, I
have moved to an “independent” status USA-wise, and will probably change to it
after this next round of primaries is over – I still vote as an ex-pat here in
Brasil. I am not yet a Brazilian citizen, and as permanent resident – because
of marriage, I am exempt here from voting, which is obligatory. Once I become a
citizen, I’ll have to vote. And that’s a good thing.
My husband and most of his family detest the
obligation part. Brazilians, don't like being required to do anything, as one
easily sees in their driving habits. I
rather think obligatory voting is good. You must vote here if you are a public
servant (we are federal employees), or if you want to travel abroad, obtain a
passport, get the (not so good but free) healthcare, when they leave the
country, immigration checks to see if they have voted, in the last 5 elections,
if not you are fined. Simply put it forces most people to pay attention,
something not required of in the States. Elections are pretty straightforward
here… 100% electronic (when 90% of the population
who can vote 16 to 18 if you want, 18 to 65 obligatory, and then it has to be
on a Sunday and electronic). The bars are closed from around sunset Saturday to
Sunday evenings, after the polls close (that to me is really why people hate
the obligatory aspect, but I digress). You know who won the election an hour
after the polls close, there are maybe 70 political parties and one national primary and
a month later those candidates that didn’t get a 51% majority have a run
off. Every night during voting season
there is an hour of free ads, I think they are interesting as does my husband…
some very well made and very professional… others very home made “vote for me…
I like horses!” The ridiculously long, painful
and horrifyingly expensive process of primaries in the USA that in the end only
go to make people angry and cynical to just get delegates to a convention and the
whole electoral college stuff is just backwards, and Brazilians ask me over and
over to explain it. I can’t very well. So on that one: obligatory, electronic and
quick and fast… Brasil is a model. Where it is not a model, except if you
regard perhaps winning at corruption, is the overall attitude of the “rules don’t apply
to me”. It is why they are terrible drivers, but again I digress. This has led us to the current crisis here, that threatens to run us
like a party of hungry lemmings or a buffalo stampede, over a cliff (hmm...
there are no lemmings or buffalo to my mind in South America, imagine a flock
of hysterical and panicked emus). The corruption here is
oh so spectacular! As I said somewhere else I cannot to my mind understand how anyone
can move from point A to point B in this country and not acknowledge the
suffering. But, to be fair, there is
corruption in the States, and in fact part of the reason for the impeachment
hearings here are because the President is being accused of using funds taken from
PETROBRAS (the state owned energy company) for her re-election. The party mud
slinging here, has caused the government to grind to a halt, just when we have
a major outbreak of deadly mosquito born diseases, the Olympics and an economic
meltdown to attend to. The sense that we are all going to get zika and dengue
and the world will laugh at our inability to hold an Olympics is palpable and
well, warranted. Years ago, when I was doing house repair
work for Helen Bishop, she used to make a great tea and tell scary WWII/Nazi
stories. I asked her, what were people supposed to do when the Nazis took over,
she shared many thoughts and tales, but I remember that she personally traveled
around and took all the Bahá’í books and randomly put them on the shelves of
the libraries, completely out of order – the Reich loving order so much that
they never really noticed books out of order in their uber-libraries. She had dozens of creative things the Baha’i’s
who were eventually completely obliterated did. Some were very brave and scary to me. She
was the ambassador to the League of Nations for the Bahá’í Community so with her
great beauty, intellect, her big hat and a pair of annoying Pekinese dogs, she
traveled around Nazi territory and visited with both sides and the Baha’i’s. That being said, and so I wonder if,
Baha’i’s might not be a little more aggressive, a little bit more creative, a
little bit more engaged in the outward community, in encouraging a positive focus
on the data, on the problem, on the solution. In the end we might all be
vaporized, but at least we will be for doing something! Just being passive,
disconnected, uninformed, anti-politic, or not participating at all, to me is
part of the problem, and offers no solution, and will eventually get you
vaporized as well anyway. That is what I saw when I lived in Guatemala. Some Persian pioneers who worked with a
Highland Maya Bahá’í community hours from the capital when I lived there shared
a story of how in that region the guerillas would wipe out villages aligned
with the right-wing US supported dictatorship, and the government would wipe
out communities of those supporting the guerillas. One particular community,
survived, as an island of tranquility in a stormy chaotic sea. The Baha’i’s built
a modest Bahá’í center. When the Catholics and Evangelicals saw this they
wanted one too, so, the Baha’i’s let them use it! One day the community council observed
that after the earthquake a good 10 years before, the government hadn’t repaired
their water system, so they elected a young man to go to the capital to learn
how to build one. Lesson learned for me, focus on the problem, focus on the
data, find a way to solve the problem and you don’t owe any one any favors. As
far as I know, the village managed to survive the war, and got its own water
system. So what do I suggest? On the large stage, I suggest we focus on
the data (I am a pie loving math professor after all) and the problem, a part from often dramatic and manipulative
personalities and parties. Doing the right thing, being task oriented
– not easy in this often very dramatic and charmingly chaotic environment even when things are going well here. Focusing
on the data, asking our leaders what they will do about the “data” and/or the
problem… seems one thing I can and will do. Doing so as kindly as possible, not
being angry or arrogant, and with manners (breathe Orey, you can do this!) or
as I am known for saying “with sensible shoes” seems entirely possible. Trying to understand the other side (take a
deep breath and try, Prof Orey, try and understand why they are doing xyz… is
my mantra) and I see that it’s about fear. And do something to help allay the
fear… last trip to the States, my Dad & I went for burgers and beers at a new
brewpub downtown in our little town in S. Oregon. He began lamenting about how the
whole world was going to hell in hand basket, and I stopped him, and said, “Dad
look, things are serious, but its not the end of anything… look at the cool
stuff… my gawd, I am here having an amazing beer or two with my dad and a
amazing buffalo-emu –goat burger, and there are trains going by (when I was a
kid they stopped running) and we are served by a beautiful Afro-American
lesbian”. Just then, she walked by and said “thank you!” and we laughed… and then he told me that, that all of this
trendy new development is because of pot money you know… again we laughed. This fear, is what is common to both sides…
“I am afraid that my community is being engulfed by uncreative corrupt crazy
people and drug running gangs”, I hear it a lot when I go back to the States,
OK… Some form of positive action is needed, as I submit much of the anxiety
around me here in Brasil is linked to a sense of helplessness, and fear of what
might happen as well. Many of the people around me are used to
having someone take care of things for them (gads that makes me sound like a
tea partier) but when I show by example, how I deal with it by simple acts of kindness,
I noticed people react positively: giving up a seat on the bus, smiling, greeting
everyone, picking up a little bit of litter, etc.… the little things, that I
still have control over. It seems naïve, I know, and I admit, I live in a lovely
small town high in the mountains of Minas Gerais, and morning walks are every
bit as charming as the opening of Disney’s Beauty and the Beast, you know: "Good
morning baker! Good morning smiling flower lady! Good morning Professor Orey!" It's true! My mentor and Brazilian ethnomathematics
guru Ubiratan D’Ambrosio talks about “glocalization” – very much like
"think globally and act locally". Being kind, by gracefully raising
awareness in our students and neighbors and colleagues about the seriousness
and the moral consequences of our actions. Its all we really can do anyway, now isn’t
it?
Odd, I have a strange desire for
pie… alas I live in country that only throws them metaphorically, and does not
make them. Just my luck.
A gratidão é uma manifestação da luz. Se está podendo agradecer é
porque encontrou luz dentro de você. Quem agradece é o seu coração. Se
você pode agradecer é porque o seu coração está aberto. Um coração
aberto é sinônimo de presença; e a presença é uma fragrância da
divindade que te habita - um vislumbre do Eterno.”
“La gratitud es una manifestación de la luz. Si estas pudiendo agradecer es porque encontraste luz dentro
de ti. Quien agradece es tu corazón. Si puedes agradecer es porque tu
corazón está abierto. Un corazón abierto es sinónimo de presencia; y la
presencia es una fragancia de la divinidad que te habita, un vislumbre
de lo Eterno.”
“Gratitude
is a manifestation of light. If we are able to give thanks, it is
because we have encountered the light inside of us. The aspect within us
that is capable of gratitude is our heart. We can only give thanks with
an open heart, which is synonymous with being present. Presence is the
fragrance of the divinity that inhabits us and it gives us a glimpse of
the Eternal.”
Cease
from practice based on intellectual understanding, pursuing words and
following after speech, and learn the backward step that turns your
light inwardly to illuminate your self. Body and mind of themselves will
drop away, and your original face will be manifest.