Working with the Five Remembrances
By Tina Lear
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A personal blog by a graying (mostly Anglo with light African-American roots) gay left leaning liberal progressive married college-educated Buddhist Baha'i BBC/NPR-listening Professor Emeritus now following the Dharma in Minas Gerais, Brasil.
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It is the 20th anniversary of the terror attack on the World Trade Centers, the Pentagon and on fellow citizens of this country. The Bush administration began planning war even before the tragic events of 9/11/01, but that it was the causus belli for which they were waiting and the day after 9/11 they went to work to weave the web of lies they used to bring us into an unjust and even more tragically, unnecessary war.
As the shadows of war slowly began to spread across our country, White Crane offered an issue devoted to the spiritual idea of “Resistance.” Performance artist and author, Tim Miller spoke about the role resistance played in his art.
The rise of Fascism and Racism and the plutocracy of the Republicans has made resistance new again. If not “new” then as pressing as ever. The war that was started twenty years ago still rages on, chewing up blood and treasure in its belligerent maw. We live in the Chinese curse of “interesting times.” I don’t hesitate to say it’s scary.
So in observation of 9/11, now more than a decade later, and in light of current events, it is a idea and a discussion worth revisiting.
Art of Resistance
Tim Miller
Even more than in my performances, I think I have been able to explore and dismantle the worst of our patriarchal legacy as men through the Gay men's performance workshops I teach. For almost twenty years I have been leading performance workshops for groups of men all over the world. These workshops have been a place for men to resist the patriarchal legacy by physically exploring in full-color real time their most intimate narratives, memories, dreams and possibilities with one another.
While I have often done this work with mixed groups of straight, bi-sexual and Gay men, the majority of my efforts have been within the diverse Gay men's communities in the United States, Australia and the United Kingdom. A constant focus, the base note as it were, of all this work, has been a commitment to discovering a more authentic and individualized way of being present within our deeply problematized men's psyches and bodies. I have taught such workshops in contexts as varied as at the Men & Masculinities conference that was sponsored by the National Organization of Men Against Sexism (NOMAS) in Johnstown, Pennsylvania to hundreds of performance workshops for Gay men in cities from Sydney, Australia to Glasgow, Scotland. .
In the work I do with groups of Gay men, I have learned that finding a way to be more present in our embodied selves and open to the narratives that we carry in our queer flesh and blood is the quickest route to discovering the revelatory material about what it just might mean to be human. Claiming this kind of psychic space to explore our most queeny, spiritual or erotic selves as Gay men is to me a profound act of resistance.
In 1994 frayed from the culture war and onslaught of AIDS, I made a show called Naked Breath in which I wanted to write a sexy and highly personal story about how two men, one HIV-positive and one negative, managed to connect. After several years in the late 80's and early 90's of shouting in front of government buildings or being dragged by cops down the asphalt on the streets of Los Angeles or Houston or San Francisco or New York with ACT-UP, I felt called to really honor the quiet human-size victories that are available to us.
To model the resistance to fear of each other’s bodies across sero-status, but also to perform the resistance to the virus' negative effects to our psychic and emotional health as we did this. I wanted to try to locate what has happened to us during the AIDS era and hold up the hopeful fact that men were still able to get close to one another there amid the swirl of blood within and the cum smeared on our bodies. In Naked Breath I am surrounded by both these bodily fluids; I wanted to get wet in this performance. I also wanted that we could do this safely and full of respect for each other's bodies.
My new show Us is full of nascent little queer boy resistance, but my show GLORY BOX has my favorite example. I tell a funny story in GLORY BOX about asking a boy to marry me when I was nine years old. He beats me up and tells me to "take it back". I do "take it back—that I wanted to marry him—but I cross my fingers behind me before I do! Maybe that was the beginning of my resistance and activism! That gave me the basic dissatisfaction with stuff that just isn't fair.
I do think though, that Gay Americans are ready to submit to a basic disrespect to their humanity that Gay people in other western countries would find unacceptable. We have accommodated to sodomy laws, Gays not allowed in the military etc. We have that damn radical religious right in the U.S. that other countries just don't have. It infects everything. If queer folks in America would actually be prepared to resist we could change so much that messes with our community. That old devil of internalized homophobia gets in our way.
I keep trying to stay close to that little nine-year old who knew that it just wasn't fair that he couldn't marry another boy! This is very much connected to the story I tell in Us about relating to Oliver Twist in the film musical as a little queer activist. He, too, wanted some "more!” That crucial act: wanting to marry another boy, of claiming space and agency as a little nine-year-old Gay boy, that resistance to the heterosexual narrative, is the place from where all my other activism around lesbian and Gay civil marriage and immigration rights leaps.
Tim Miller is the author of SHIRTS AND SKINS and BODY BLOWS. In 1990 he was awarded an NEA Solo Performance Fellowship which was overturned under political pressure from the Bush I White House. As part of the NEA 4 Miller successfully sued the federal government for violation of First Amendment rights and won. Though this decision was later partially overturned by the Supreme Court, Miller continues his fight for freedom of expression and Gay rights.
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Gratitude, the simple and profound feeling of being thankful, is the foundation of all generosity.
—Sallie Tisdale, dharma teacher and author
The
Buddha’s teaching that “Nothing whatsoever is worth clinging to”
doesn’t entail a loss or a diminishing of anything other than greed,
hate, and delusion. It points to the radiance of liberation, far beyond
the practice of mindfulness.
Gil Fronsdal, “When Mindfulness Is Too Much”
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One time I had a moment with Maharajji when I was sitting across the
courtyard from him – he was talking to a group of people and I was
watching everybody fawn all over him asking questions, and I thought,
“What a bunch of crap.” You know, “What am I doing here? I don’t care if
I never see this guy again.” And I felt immediately guilty about the
thought.
Then Maharajji turned and looked over at me and then grabbed an old man,
this old fellow, and he whispered to him and sent him flying, the guy
came running across to me, bent down and touched my feet, and said,
“Maharajji said, ‘Ram Dass and I understand each other perfectly.’"
- Ram Dass -
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How
is it possible to maintain your focus, to “keep your eyes on the
prize,” without getting fixated on results? As you go about your
activities, pay attention to the difference between having a goal and
being taken over by your hopes, fears, and speculations.
Judy Lief, “Train Your Mind: Abandon Any Hope of Fruition”
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How to be Free From Views |
Photo: A still from the film Walk With Me from SpeakIt Films. What begins as a thought can quickly escalate into words and actions that harm not only those involved, but can sweep up entire communities and even nations. Thay taught that cultivating Right View, or insight, is key to maintaining our happiness and the happiness of those around us. “Touching reality deeply—knowing what is going on inside and outside of ourselves—is the way to liberate ourselves from the suffering that is caused by wrong perceptions,” Thay writes in The Heart of the Buddha’s Teaching: Transforming Suffering into Peace, Joy, and Liberation. “Right View is not an ideology, a system, or even a path. It is the insight we have into the reality of life, a living insight that fills us with understanding, peace, and love." In Episode 36 of The Way Out Is In, podcast hosts Brother Phap Huu and Jo Confino explore Right View, which is part of the Buddha’s teachings on the Noble Eightfold Path. “As humans, we have so many views, and because of our views, and because we live with certain views, we trap ourselves in a lifestyle, in a way of being, that can offer suffering or offer happiness,” Brother Phap Huu says. “So the first wing of meditation is learning to stop. And the second wing is to learn to look deeply. “If we don’t ever have a chance to reflect on our own way of how we see life, how we see our sources of joy, our sources of happiness, then we will never have a chance to broaden and be open to our own awakening. So practicing Zen, practicing Buddhism, is learning to be more open and more free of views because it can be such an obstacle to happiness, as well as an obstacle to peace.” |
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If
we’re really reflecting on impermanence, then we can see that the
important things are compassion and loving others—giving to others and
taking care of others—because everything else becomes meaningless, in a
sense.
Anyen Rinpoche and Allison Choying Zangmo, “Living and Dying with Confidence”
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From Jesus and the Shamanic Tradition of Same-Sex Love
by Will Roscoe,
originally in White Crane issue #63, winter 2005, Totems and Animal Wisdom:
In 1979, I attended a retreat where Hay passionately presented his idea concerning subject-Subject consciousness and called on us as Gay men to foster it. At that event I discovered I was not alone in yearning to incorporate a spiritual outlook into my life. For many of us, a spiritual inclination began in childhood with a fantasy life that included talking to trees and animals, and inventing rituals. As we shared these experiences at the 1979 retreat, we realized that Gay spirituality begins with reclaiming the child-like awareness we had before the crippling and stifling influence of homophobia penetrated our lives. Whitman had a similar intuition and frequently celebrated boyhood. In “There was a Child Went Forth,” he describes the child’s awareness in terms that resonate with Hay’s concept of subject-subject:
There was a child went forth every day,
And the first object he look’d upon, that object he became,
And that object became part of him
But in 1979 adhesive love and subject-subject consciousness were ideals not realities. In those years, it was difficult to see anything redeeming in the way that Gay men were pursuing love. The activist, experimental era of Gay liberation was over. A grassroots movement of volunteer and self-help organizations was being replaced by agencies staffed with professionals. Gay marches had become Gay parades, and Gay social life was shifting from public and community-organized events to commercial venues.
Discussions of Gay love gave way to a narrower focus on sexuality. Self-identified sex radicals claimed that simply having Gay sex challenged the social system, while moderates claimed that sex was the only thing that distinguished lesbians, Gay men, and bisexuals from heterosexuals, and, since it was a private act, it was an invisible difference. In either case, sex was the lynchpin of Gay identity. To be Gay or bisexual was to have sex. At the same time, many Gays, lesbians, and bisexuals were rejecting the idea advanced by earlier liberationists that they might be gender different. The assimilationist mantra took its place: “We’re no different from heterosexuals except for what we do in bed.”
In the 1970s, to live up to their image as sexual athletes, Gay men began using drugs and alcohol at rates far in excess of the general population. Our sexual experiences became increasingly intense, but they occurred in contexts that attributed them with no particular significance. Gay men began referring to sex as “play”—it became a form of recreation, to be consumed much as entertainment or travel or fashion. Far from posing a challenge to the social order, it turned out that a sexual minority community whose identity was derived from what it consumed was perfectly compatible with postindustrial capitalism.
All this occurred as an organized anti-Gay opposition was emerging. In 1977, Anita Bryant’s campaign in Dade County, Florida overturned legislation to protect Gays from discrimination. Soon Gay civil rights protections were being repealed throughout the country. Heterosexual Americans were not ready to see Gay lifestyles or relationships as equal to theirs in any way, nor were they willing to entertain the possibility that Gays were different in ways that might be beneficial. Indeed, Gays themselves increasingly rejected such speculations as elitist, throwbacks to a discredited model of homosexuality as inborn and essential. Lesbian and Gay intellectuals, under the influence of Michel Foucault and the theory of social constructionism, not only decried the idea of queer differences, the very desire to explore the meaning of one’s sexual identity was dismissed out of hand.
In 1982, at the same time I was reading Clement of Alexandria, I decided to write an essay expressing my dismay at the role of sexual objectification in the Gay men’s community. Instead of healing the wounds inflicted on us by a homophobic society, we were perpetuating low self-esteem. And the consequences of this, I argued, could be seen in a growing range of health problems appearing among Gay men—from alcoholism to sexually transmitted diseases to recent reports of a new and mysterious illness that was taking Gay men’s lives.
My essay, titled “Desperate Living” (after a popular John Waters’ film), was published about the same time that I put down Smith’s book. Our extended stay with Harry and his partner John in Los Angeles was over. Brad and I were still young, in our twenties, and life flowed in strong currents. We found ourselves back in San Francisco, immersed in new jobs and new projects.
Fifteen years passed before I took up Smith’s book again. It was 1997, and I had been invited to speak at Gay Spirit Visions, an annual conference held outside Atlanta, Georgia. The theme was mentoring. As I thought about this topic, it occurred to me that Gay men needed not only mentors—teachers, guides, role models—but also some form of initiatory experience to mark their passage from the closet to community and from Gay childhood to Gay adulthood.
Then I remembered the mystical rite of initiation uncovered by Morton Smith. As I began re-reading his book, I saw connections that had escaped me before. I realized how Jesus’ secret baptism drew on ideas and images with a long history, and how it was that same-sex love could be part of, indeed, give rise to, visionary experiences. I realized as well that the insights I was having now were the result of what I had experienced in the fifteen years since I last picked up Smith’s book.
Those were the years when the AIDS epidemic swept through our lives like wildfire, whisking away acquaintances, friends, and lovers—and, eventually, my own life partner.
Excerpt reprinted from Jesus and the Shamanic Tradition of Same-Sex Love by Will Roscoe (Suspect Thoughts Press) courtesy of the author.
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It’s not about how successful we are right now, but what we aim at that is most important.
Mingyur Rinpoche, “The Easy Middle”
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